John 13:4-16 (Jesus washes the disciples' feet) and 13:27, KJV: "Then after he had taken the morsel, Satan entered into him [Judas]. Jesus said to him, 'What you are going to do, do quickly.'"
Did you ever notice that Jesus washed Judas' feet along with the rest of the disciples? I guess I hadn't noticed before, even after reading this passage countless times. This year it really struck me. Jesus loved Judas enough to share the last meal seated next to him, give him communion, and wash his feet.
Judas had experienced all that the rest of the disciples had. He'd watched the miracles Jesus performed. He heard the sermons Jesus preached. He went out like the rest of the disciples to heal and teach. He ate the fish and bread Jesus brought out of thin air. He'd seen Lazarus raised from the dead. He shared the last supper with the rest of the disciples. He heard Jesus's words, "This is my body, broken for you" and "This is my blood, shed for you." And Jesus washed Judas' feet.
Yet he had been guilty of dipping into the coins they had for needs of the disciples; and he bargained for thirty pieces of silver, the price of a slave, to betray Jesus to the chief priests.
My heart is broken. How could he do that? And yet--what if he had not?